intan's blog

I like writing, learning foreign languages, reading, cooking, cleaning the house, listening  to music, reading or listening to Quran recitations, helping others, giving charity, looking neat and smelling good.    I don't like reading heavy books, difficult books, books that imitate others, inauthentic books,  or books that are read aloud. I like things to go slowly, everything slowly. Like my feet, when  I walk really slowly because I'm sleepy and weak. I don't know why, maybe it's the influence of  the medication from the psychiatrist. Right now, I'm very sleepy, even though it's only 11 a.m.  My work isn't that heavy today, but I'm already feeling sleepy and weak. I don't like this kind  of condition. I'd rather be energetic, smell good, smart, beautiful, and healthy.

 This feeling is really complex, lonely many times, feeling alone in the midst of the waves, harboring anger, bearing uncertain promises. I don't know who to promise, but I feel my life is really heavy. the feeling of wanting to be loved is really high, I don't want to be alone, I want many friends, many who love me, admired, desired, I want it all, peace and also freedom.

 heart wounds can be felt by anyone. deep heart wounds, or even mild, can actually be overcome, one of which is by reading the Koran, writing, reading, listening to music, chatting, eating good food, drinking good and nutritious, exercising, traveling, cleaning the house. every day, the way I treat my heart wounds is by reading the Koran, staying silent, crying, whimpering, opening help to anyone who wants to chat with me. yes, it seems complicated, but not really. treating heart wounds is very easy, even though the pain is not completely gone, just a little -slightly. There is no other way to heal a wounded heart other than getting closer to God, filling your time with useful activities, don't like daydreaming, lying down, scrolling social media.

I commit to write one title every day. i want to be a writer, whether it's a blog, article, book, novel, because this job is very relaxing and doesn't require social interaction. i don't feel overwhelmed, it's just writing and writing my thoughts, right? this job is really cool. i would love to have many readers and make money. What do you think is the hardest thing about writing? ideas? goals? ah easy, just writing is really hard, i don't want to make things hard, i have to think critically, optimistically, cheerfully.